October 3, 2017

24 weeks | baby five

how far along:  24 weeks 2 days (compare to 24 weeks with Ryann, Elsie and Thea)

size of baby:  An eggplant? 

weight gain: +19 pounds.  I can't get enough peanut m&ms...

maternity clothes: For sure.  The weather teased me there and actually felt like fall for a day or two, which expanded my wardrobe, but then it was back to 85+ degrees.

symptoms: I've actually been pretty tired the last week.  To the point that I fell asleep while the girls were playing and woke up a couple minutes later to Thea drawing with blue marker on the wall.  Fail.  Other than that, just noticing the belly more and more.

exercise:  Lots of walking.  About 100,000 steps a week.  And trying to do the occasional squats, push-ups and planks.

cravings/aversions:  I can't say I'm craving anything in particular, but I'm eating way too many sweets.

movement:  Some days I feel lots of movement, some days she is pretty quiet.  I'm hoping it is just in relation to the anterior placenta and how she is positioned at that particular time.  But the quiet days always increase my anxiety a bit.

sleep: I don't feel like I'm getting very restful sleep.  I'm not waking up in the middle of the night too much, but in the morning I definitely don't feel refreshed by any means.

gender:  Girl

looking forward to: Actually deciding on a name, and getting started on the great game of musical rooms.  Decisions in the design department aren't my forte right now either.  This weekend my parents are keeping the girls for a bit so Chris and I are venturing to IKEA and Home Goods.  Hoping I get a few things to start the room switching process!

worries:  Right now I pretty much focus on whether or not I'm feeling enough movement.  Her heartbeat is still nice and strong when I use the doppler, which I've tamed down to maybe once a week just to calm my nerves.  I know the rest of the pregnancy is going to go by really fast, and I don't want to wish it away, but I want her safely in my arms so bad.

best moment this week:  Viability week!  Baby girl has a chance.  :o)


And just another picture I took this past week because I actually got dressed in regular clothes on a weekday.

September 19, 2017

twenty-two weeks | baby five


I feel like I'm carrying this baby higher up than the other three.  I've always gotten pretty much the basketball belly, but I feel like there is just more going on in the rib area?  Who knows.  Also my phone just couldn't handle the overcast lighting for some reason.
how far along:  22 weeks (compare to 22 weeks with Ryann, Elsie and Thea)

size of baby:  An ear of corn.  At my ultrasound on Friday baby girl the tech guessed that she was already weighing 1lb 2oz!  That put her in roughly the 70th percentile.  I feel like she'll likely be my biggest baby yet, depending on when I deliver.  Maybe the first over 7 pounds?   I don't mind them small though.  Easier exit.  ;o) 

weight gain: +14.5 pounds.  And somehow I've evened out with the weight that I gained with Thea.  Granted I started off six pounds heavier but who cares... (fine. me, a little bit.)

maternity clothes: Yes.  But really I hate all clothes and don't want to leave the house because I just want to wear my baggiest most comfortable clothing.

symptoms: I've actually been pretty tired the last week.  To the point that I fell asleep while the girls were playing and woke up a couple minutes later to Thea drawing with blue marker on the wall.  Fail.  Other than that, just noticing the belly more and more.

exercise:  Nothing to write home about, but I make sure to keep my step count up and get in a few videos a week.

cravings/aversions:  Everything.  I want the weather to cool down so soup is more acceptable.

movement:  Thursday of last week I finally started to feel some significant movement.  It still isn't very consistent or as much as I'd like, but definitely there.  Chris actually felt a tap or two.

sleep: It could be better but I won't complain.

gender:  Girl

looking forward to:  Making it to viability week.  I have zero interest in having this baby before Christmas, but I feel like a small weight would be lifted off my shoulders if we could get past 24 weeks.  She'd have a chance.

worries:  I still just can't shake all the thoughts of ways she might not get to come home with us.  It isn't at the front of my mind, but still always there.

best moment this week: As I mentioned on Friday I had my ultrasound and it was so much fun.  We confirmed that she was indeed a girl, and then the tech took all her measurements and checked the organs, etc.  The cutest part by far was that baby girl had her little ankles crossed and seemed like she was just kicked back, relaxing.  And every time the tech would move the wand over her legs she'd jab me in the side.  Seriously, I couldn't get over how cute her little feet were.  The ultrasound went well and my doctor said baby looked fabulous and beautiful.  She struggled to find the heartbeat because little miss apparently would not stay in one position, so it was a good thing that I just had my ultrasound!  I was sent home with my lovely glucose drink for my next appointment.  Only two more 4 week appointments before I start going every two weeks.  This pregnancy is flying at the moment.


Can't wait to meet you baby girl.

twenty weeks | baby five

written September 3rd


Definitely thought I posted this when I wrote it.  Whoops.  I can't believe I'm already 20 weeks.  This pregnancy is flying by for sure.  And usually the last few weeks of pregnancy feel like an eternity, but with my due date being so close to the holidays and my history of being induced early, I have a feeling the rest of the pregnancy will fly by at an alarming rate!
how far along:  20 weeks (compare to 20 weeks with Ryann, Elsie and Thea)

size of baby:  A Belgian endive.  I don't even really know what that is let alone have a clue how big it is, but the app says roughly ten inches. 

weight gain: +12.5 pounds.  You better believe I'll hold on to that half pound thank you very much.

maternity clothes: Yep.  Looking forward to cooler weather and leggings and lots more stretchy things!  Lol.

symptoms: I can fall asleep at the drop of the hat, and I can physically tell I'm pregnant just because the belly can get in the way and my crotch hurts on the regular.  But overall I feel pretty darn good.  Going to enjoy this little sweet spot while I can!

exercise:  My knees were hurting pretty bad at the beginning of the week, but I did I think four videos this past week, along with hitting 10,000+ steps daily.  This morning I did intervals, it was only a total of about one mile running to two miles walking, but at least I haven't completely lost my ability to run.  My last 'run' in the workout I lasted four minutes, I'll take it.

cravings/aversions:  At the moment I can't wait to eat all the watermelon we have cut up in the fridge.  But mostly just food.  I like food.  A lot.

movement:  I'm feeling her a tiny bit here and there daily, but it is still barely enough to feel.  To the point that I question if I've felt movement and I've become more dependent on my doppler in the last few days than I had been.  I know my placenta is completely across the front and I know that makes a big difference.  But come on baby girl, help your mama out.

sleep: Surprisingly good.

gender:  Girl

looking forward to:  Elsie and Thea start preschool on Wednesday, and so begins my two mornings a week to try and get all the nesting done!  I'm actually pretty pumped about it.  I'm determined to get all the toys and things organized to a point that it isn't such a hassle when I tell the girls to clean up.  And I have to figure out how I'm going to fit all of Ryann and Elsie's stuff in one room.  Yikes.

worries:  That something will be wrong at our ultrasound.  Less than two weeks to go.

best moment this week: Reaching that official halfway point?

August 29, 2017

thea's ice cream birthday party

Leading up to Thea's birthday party, my mom was worried because we weren't 'doing' as much as we had for previous parties.  We didn't craft a lot of decorations or special favors.  There weren't any extensive backdrops made.  I kept it simple because I just didn't have the energy to come up with anything too complicated.  Also I originally planned to have the party at our house, just having the kids play in the backyard.  But the weeks prior the weather was miserably hot and I couldn't imagine asking everyone to hang out back there.  So we switched to a swimming party at my parent's house.  Naturally I think the high ended up being maybe 82?  It was beautiful in the shade.

Still, I'm glad we made the switch, and the laid back party was perfect, everyone seemed happy, I wasn't stressed, Thea gasped at every decoration and every present and ate plenty of ice cream and overall just had a great time.

We had the party at 3:30pm.  To eat there was an ice cream bar, a cake made by one friend Jennifer, and cookies made by my other friend Jennifer!  Those girls definitely know how to make adorable (and delicious) sweets.  We also had some cheddar squares and chex mix.  The pink bowls for toppings came from Hyvee, the jars for the syrups from the dollar store, and pretty much everything else we already had or I got on Amazon.


My parent's pool is wonderful for swimming with smaller kiddos.  The shallow end is more of a deck, maybe only 18 inches or so deep?  And the deep end doesn't even quite reach 6 feet.  It makes it much easier to keep track of little ones, and allows the adults to relax a little bit.  :)


I've already got my eyes set on a mermaid pool party for next summer.  Hopefully the little miss doesn't develop any strong opinions before then.  Wishful thinking I'm sure!!  Haha.

August 25, 2017

eighteen weeks | baby five


written August 25th
how far along:  18 weeks + 5 days (compare to 18 weeks with Ryann, Elsie and Thea)

size of baby:  A sweet potato. 

weight gain: Uhhhh........ +12 pounds.  I don't even know anymore.  I'm struggling to make good food choices.  But I don't really feel like I'm eating in complete excess either.  I don't know what to think.  Next week I'm going to try sticking to the Beachbody container system (allowing extra containers for pregnancy) and see if I can get my eating back on track.  This pregnancy is a short season in my life, and I have no intention of doing pregnancy again, so I'm trying not to dwell too much.  BUT, I also don't want to end up on delivery day with 40+ pounds gained.  Some women do and their body needs that and that is fine.  There is no way my body needs 40 pounds to safely carry this baby.  

maternity clothes:  Yes.  Regular shirts are quickly feeling too short and I'm not going to even try to squeeze into regular pants.  I need to find some different solutions for workout and lounge wear.  I don't remember hating my workout pants, but they have been folding over and it is driving me nuts.

symptoms: As the belly grows I'm starting to notice some issues bending to do things and getting up and down off the floor.  And I am still getting headaches here and there, I get tired, and have a bit of heartburn or reflux or something.  Overall though, I'm feeling pretty dang good right now.  I feel like we need to do ALL THE THINGS.  Cleaning the things, organize the things, cook the things, have fun, go out to eat, do it ALL like yesterday.  Before this burst of energy disappears and I go back to wanting to be a hermit.  Which means by like 8pm I'm so ready for bed.

exercise:  Thanks to the weight gain and sudden burst of energy, I'm trying to jump back into doing videos in the morning.  Being able to go on a walk after Ryann heads off to school is also helping.  I've done a Beachbody video  every day since Saturday.  I'm sore, but enjoying it.  And I'm just going to take a moment to say I think purchasing the Beachbody on demand, if you like working out at home, is a GREAT investment.  I wasn't thrilled with the gym options when we moved here, but missed the motivation of group classes and being surrounded by people.  I still have to mentally motivate myself to keep going, but there are so many different kinds of workouts to try, many topping at out 35 minutes, that you don't get bored.  I like the 21 Day Fix, Core de Force, Shift Shop, Cize, and some others that I can't remember.  The first two being my favorites.  I'm not a coach, nobody is giving me anything for promoting Beachbody, I just think you should consider it.  :)

cravings/aversions:  I just want all the food.

movement:  I'm pretty sure I started feeling movement last Wednesday (August 16th at 17w3d).  It isn't consistent at all, and barely noticable, but now I definitely know it is movement.  So exciting, this might start feeling real soon!

sleep:  Not too much to complain about in this department.

gender:  Girl

looking forward to:  Movement getting stronger and starting to work on moving all the girls around and redecorating a bit.  Moving everyone around is also stressing me out but whatever.  It's fine.

worries:  I'm still struggling a bit to connect to this pregnancy.  I've got the other three girls to keep me busy so that isn't much of a surprise, but I feel like I've got a wall up that I just can't break through.  It doesn't matter that we've talked about names or that I've started dreaming up how to freshen up the nursery.  I just can't make the connection.  Hopefully soon.

best moment this week:  Feeling movement is pretty great.  Also every time I tuck Thea in for nap or bedtime she smiles up at me and says "I gonna have a baby sister.  I gonna hug her and kiss her and hold her."  It is so flipping cute.  Hopefully she doesn't change her tune once baby is here, or you know, smother her or something.


And tossing in this photo I snapped of the belly at 17 weeks.  My size is highly dependent on what I've had to eat that day.  On this particular night it was Chipolte (a salad, but still).  No surprise I looked much further along than 17 weeks in my opinion!

August 17, 2017

thea's second birthday

Oh hey insomnia.  Guess I might as well blog right?

Celebrating Thea's birthday was simply just so much fun.  To begin with, Ryann and Elsie really understand birthday's and celebrating someone so they were so excited to shower Thea with love and really pumped her up.  And beyond that, Thea had quite possibly the best reaction to everything.  She spent the whole day squealing with delight about presents and treats and people and just everything.  It definitely made everything worth it.

Naturally the little stinker was up with the sun.  Christopher, Ryann and I went in her room, that we had filled with balloons the night before, and sang her happy birthday.  She was a bit stunned at first, but quickly came around just shrieking and throwing balloons in the air.  We had a giant Olaf balloon waiting downstairs for her as well and she loved it just as much.  Then her and I took off for a doughnut shop to pick out breakfast for everyone.


After breakfast we played a bit, then got ready for the day.  Ryann headed off to art camp (so lucky to have a neighbor who had kiddos in the same camp who generously took Ryann for me!) and the littles watched a show while I finished getting myself together.  We took photos for Thea's twenty-four month post and then it was off to the Discovery Center!  The girls absolutely love that place.  We don't go as often as we'd like, because despite sanitizer and hand washing, someone always winds up with at minimum a cold roughly two days later (this time it was Thea, boogers galore the day after her birthday party!).  Elsie and Thea had a lot of fun.  The spent a ton of time in the painting area, and also went about 20 minutes just loading and unloading a couple bags with fake vegetables.

We picked up Ryann from camp at noon and headed to Chili's for lunch.  It has become the one restaurant we can go to and I know that everyone will eat something.  This particular day I'm pretty sure Thea only ate chips and salsa (one of her favorites!) and french fries.  She also enjoys mac and cheese and pizza from there (typical) but she had her own little bowl of salsa and just couldn't stop with the chips.  I guess you do what you want on your birthday.


We went home for nap time, and I was apparently just as worn out as Thea was, because I passed out too.  Chris only works half days on Thursdays, so once Thea was up we gathered her presents and headed to my parents to open them.  Her favorite gift was probably a bunch of little plastic Disney princesses that I got from the check out lines at Walmart.  Figures!  We followed gifts up with swimming, dinner and cupcakes.  Thea pretty much smiled and giggled all day long.  It was great.

probably should have taken the family picture before she was covered in cupcake

Thea I'm sure you won't remember this birthday, but I won't forget it.  Your excitement over every little thing was just the best.  I can't wait to experience the holiday season with you this year!

August 7, 2017

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Our family is very much looking forward to hopefully starting 2018 on a much more positive note than we did 2017...


We've got another baby on the way.  And it's another baby girl at that!  The girls are so very excited, and talk about their baby sister everyday.  I have zero personal space as they are all constantly trying to 'hug and kiss' baby sister.  I plan to do a separate post about how this pregnancy has been in regards to the miscarriage, but for a now I'll answer a few of the regular questions I get...

When are you due?  January 21st!  My OB's office claims the 19th, but I'm pretty certain I didn't ovulate quite that early.  We'll see how early this baby gets herself kicked out, but it is pretty likely that she'll be a 2018 baby.

How did you find out the sex so early?  Early genetic testing, aka free cell DNA testing.  It isn't always covered by insurance for women under 35, and I couldn't get a clear answer on what our cost will be, but we haven't seen a bill yet.  Hoping it isn't more than $100-$200.

We're you trying for a boy?  Four kids has kind of always been my number.  After Thea was another girl we were hesitant to have a fourth, simply because four girls sounded slightly terrifying, but when it really came down to it we were happy to bring home a baby of either sex.  We won't keep having kids.  Four was our max.

Do you already have a name picked out?  Nope, feel free to leave suggestions.  :o)  Preferably not in the social security top 100 list, and nothing that starts with a B.


I have written a handful of pregnancy updates.  They are now posted, but back dated.  If you'd like to easily read through them, click pregnancy #5 in the sidebar.

Four kids, four girls, it is going to be quite the crazy ride.  But we're very much looking forward to bringing home another baby and praying for her safe arrival.  And I mean seriously, how much crazier could it get?